Today I'm Alice

When Alice was a teenager strange things started happening to her. Hours of her life disappeared. She heard voices shouting at her, telling her she was useless, a failure. In her dreams she watched a girl being sexually abused and awoke pleased that she wasn't that girl, curious who she was, and why
these dreams haunted her. As she grew older the dreams grew more shocking, more detailed, more real.

Staring at herself in the mirror she'd catch her face changing like a rubber mask and would see someone else staring out from her eyes. Today I'm Alice describes the extraordinary journey of a teenager drowning
the voices with alcohol, battling anorexia and OCD, to a young woman slowly losing control to 'the children' growing from voices in her head to
full-blown personalities.

Alice suffered the despotic regimes of the psychiatric wards as she slipped further into mental illness until she was finally diagnosed with multiple personality disorder. When her 'alters' were revealed in therapy she discovered how each one had their own memories of abuse and a full picture
of her childhood finally emerged. Moving, ultimately inspiring, this memoir written with Clifford Thurlow is a gripping account of a rare condition, and the remarkable story of a
courageous woman's battle for sanity.

Book Author

Unknown-person Alice Jamieson received a 1st class honours degree in Health and Community Studies while suffering from multiple personality disorder and was unable to complete her planned PhD. A marathon runner, breaking the 4 hour barrier; a regular traveller in the Middle East and a qualified gym instructor, she is planning to start a new PhD course at the University of Birmingham in the field of self-harm and dissociation.
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Book Reviews

  • Financial Times
    "Today I’m Alice diverges from the popular “misery lit” genre; it is an intelligent, analytical first-hand account of mental illness, written by a remarkable woman still learning to live with herself."
  • London Lite
    "This is a remarkably lucid account of a life that has been fractured by multiple personality disorder… This isn't a misery memoir but an account of mental illness that's so beautifully written it reminded me of Sylvia Plath's The Bell Jar. Jamieson survived 100 overdoses, alcoholism and cocaine addiction to find love with a church warden.You won't be able to get her story out of your head… You won’t be able to get her story out of your head."
  • Times
    ".. a compelling account of the strategies she has used to survive more than two decades of grotesque sexual, physical and emotional harm. It is not comfortable reading but it does offer insight into a form of mental illness that is more pervasive than we may realise"
  • Remy Aquarone, Secretary of the ESTD (European Society for Trauma & Dissociation) and Director of the Pottergate Centre for Dissociation & Trauma
    "Today I’m Alice is the first major British book covering the subject of Multiple Personality Disorder / Dissociative Identity Disorder and childhood trauma, written by a survivor. It provides a unique insight into the complex world of living as a ‘multiple’ and is a book every mental health worker should read as this condition is rarely understood or appropriately treated within Mental Health Services..."